THOU SHALT NOT....

It should be a law, it should be posted in every hall, on every door, imprinted into everyone's mind and actions. This thing that I am speaking about should read like this:


THOU SHALT NOT PLAY WITH THE EMOTIONS OF PEOPLE

Why should this be a law? simple. Because it hurts. Because it's cruel. Because it isn't fair to raise some ones hopes up to the very sky and let them crash around her. Three times. Thats right guys. I let the same guy play me numerous times. The first time was the cheating thing. The second was the dumping me on facebook thing. The third time was tonight. You cannot be friends with someone whose broken you before. And when you let that some one draw you in, promise you things, and then cruelly take them away?

Well...Its never pretty. That's what happened tonight, so I pulled out all of my healing tricks from before. I used to think that the answer for everything was moping until everything worked out. I was wrong. The trick to pulling yourself up again is going ahead and being a girl.

I thought the reason he didn't want me, several times was because I wasn't pretty enough. So tonight I soaked in hot water for half an hour and did my toes. I thought he didn't want me because I was too available. So I've gotten pretty busy taking care of myself. I thought he didn't want me because of my obsession with Show tunes and Country Music. Tonight I listened to Alternative.

While I was sitting around. I realized how STUPID all this was! Why would I want to be someone he would like when I could get anyone else? Of course I'm hurt right now. Of course its killing me. Of course I really really want to disappear. None of this is gonna happen though. I got to be a big girl this time and suck it up. Before I go, let me leave one last note... THOU SHALT NOT PLAY WITH THE EMOTIONS OF PEOPLE. Suck on that gentlemen.

Love from hanhan =]

meh.

I hate when you piss someone off by accident. You aren't even trying and suddenly they're annoyed and mad at you, and you don't want them to be mad because they mean a lot to you. Then suddenly, they're mad and you can't fix it, and then you feel bad because it's all your fault.

Then they realize that you're getting frustrated, and you work it out,but you can tell they're still kind of annoyed and you can't make it go away because you feel too down about making them mad to begin with. Then you realize that you had a good day with them, and you don't want to let this ruin it.

BUT, then they say something and you get annoyed but you're too afraid to say something because you don't want them to be mad at you after you just spent all that time working it out. So when they ask you what's wrong you say nothing, and ask them what's wrong and then you both force a laugh because you both just want anything to be good again.

Pwah. What a day.

Love from hanhan =]

rant

Okay. I just want to talk to you all about something. You know those "relationships" you see everywhere where the couple is so fake and they barely speak because they're too busy making out, but its okay because they're in "love"? Those are stupid. Love is so much bigger than just liking his amazing abs, or her big boobs. Physical attraction doesn't equal love. Sex doesn't equal love.

I feel like love is so much deeper than we give it credit for these days. It's not something shallow and on the surface. I mean, physical attraction is part of it, but you should like the person themselves. Love is, everything. You love the stupid things, the dumb mistakes, the annoying things, everything.

People who feel like their "relationships" are perfect all the time need to realise that they aren't in love. Love shouldn't always be easy because, lets face it, life isn't easy. When people are perfect and life is perfect, then your relationship can be easy and perfect. Its more than just talking to each other every day and having one of these conversations:

Him: Oh baby, I love you so much. I'm so glad I asked you out yesterday<333
Her: Oh babe, you light the stars in my sky!
Him: Yea Hun, that's what I do. Now come see me so we can makeout.

That's not what I want. Is that what you want? Something so fake and stupid so as to be considered laughable? Because today so many people have that, and call it "true love". These people end up used and hurt and left behind, because people get tired of that and move on to better things.

Okay so my stupid rant is over. Bye!

Love from hanhan =]

Writers block

WRITERS BLOCK! ITS HORRIBLE. I HATE IT. So...I'mma write you all a poem about it!

W: worst
R: randomly occuring
I: intensely annoying
T: terribly irritating
E: extremely obnoxious
R: REALLY BOTHERSOME
S: situation.

BLOCK.

End of the poem. How beautiful is that? Now I'm going to write something real.

Love from hanhan =]

Random boredom

Dear people:

It's 1 AM. I am so tired. I'm not going to sleep though, because I am a trooper. So me and Paul's hoodie are going to sit at the computer and write this. Paul's hoodie doesn't have a choice in the matter, and it really wants to go to sleep. But it's inanimate so it isn't allowed to, and it has to stay up and blog with me. So right now I...

See: They Keyboard because I have to look at the keys.
Hear: Taylor Swift, Love Story <3
Taste: toothpaste?
Smell:Nothing really.
Feel: a cut on my hand. Ow.

Since this is a blog and I can basically write whatever I want here, I feel the need to inform you all that you should be careful with what you do and what you give away. Some things you can't get back. Some things you'll regret.

I also feel the need to inform you that you shouldn't judge people on past mistakes. Me and Paul's hoodie don't feel the need to, so why should you? Since when are you perfect enough to decide who should get a second chance and who shouldn't? That's right. It's not your place to judge people.

Paul's hoodie would like to tell you that it has a pen in its pocket. It thinks that thats pretty cool. I'm really bored right now. This is all for tonight talk to you all later!

Love from hanhan =]

Rant about something

Last night a bunch of friends and I got to do one of my favourite things ever. Yup. We went to the seminary for Holy Hour/Dodgeball/Chilling. Now, the night would have been perfect if it wasn't for one thing. One of my friends decided it would be funny to be "emo" and say she was so "bipolar", and do the friggen slashings on her arm.

I might be overreacting, and I probably am, but that's NOT funny or cute or even remotely amusing. I also know this girl does NOT do that to herself. And I really wanted to punch her in the face when she did it because I know some people who's lives have been totally messed up by depression and cutting. Its not a laughing business at all, and its very stressful for everyone around them.

So, my dear people, if you are reading this, do me a favor? DON'T make fun of these problems. Nobody makes fun of the fact that you're a stupid insensitive tard do they? No, they don't even though when you make fun of this, it just makes you not only look rude and stupid, but it pisses off and effects people around you who may happen to actually suffer from it. So, watch what you say and grow up.

Rant fin.

Love from hanhan =]