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OKAY SO HI

Christmas is over. it was beautiful. AND NOW ITS DONE.
I'm so stressed and behind and dying and blah and dramatic and not nice.
Sorry I left.
I'll be back with a real article soon.
Next year. I promise.
<3
bye

A winner at a losing game

You know what scares me? Don't laugh at me when I tell you.

I'm afraid to die, and have no one remember me. I don't want to not make a difference. I want to be stuck in people's memories as that girl who helped them become who they are. As that girl, Hannah, who really made a difference to a lot of people. Thats what I want. This blog isn't going to change the world, it probably won't change anyone but me. I'm alright with that.

I volunteer at my church a lot, and sometimes when I go out around my town, or surrounding towns, people recognize me and come up and talk to me. I think thats the coolest thing ever, and it makes me so happy to be a mini celebrity(Thats not why I volunteer, but its pretty cool).

These are two unrelated topics. I can't write very fluidly lately :p

~hanhan <3

If I die young...

So I don't know about you, but its my firm belief that everything that happens, bad or good, happens for a reason. Everything. Even if you can't see the reason when its happening, after it happens, there is indeed a reason. I've been through quite a lot for someone my age, and I've started to find reasons for even the worst things. I'm not trying to sound like a martyr, because I know that stuff I deal with is nothing to some people, but to me, some of it was awful, and some of it was great, and all of it has a reason.

Its about to get personal.

I've gotten hurt by/hurt a couple people. Although a lot of people don't really agree with my way of being, I don't really care. I'm sorry. I've learned how to be careful, how to protect myself, and how I should never compromise my morals for other peoples standards. Every time I got hurt, I pieced myself back together and learned new things about myself and the life I wanted. Its all leading me towards something, and I'm a lot happier with myself and the people in my life than I was before. So everything happened for a reason.

I have a list of examples written down, but I can't actually find them at the moment, so I apologize. If I find it, I'll type and post it for you guys.

On another note, I found some of my old notebooks. When I die, I'd really like all of the stuff I wrote, on this blog, and in the notebooks ( which I'll always write in) put into a book. All of it. Even when I'm not pleasant. No one has to get the book, its just for family or friends or what not. Anyway.

Also, this is my favorite song at the moment.

Lovelovelove hanhan

Christmas party!

So every year we have a Christmas party. A HUGE CHRISTMAS PARTY.

We used to have it on Christmas eve, to make up for our lack of family in the area, and now we have it on the weekend before. We get a bouncy house, lots of wine/beer(adults only) tons of food, and a Christmas book for everyone to write in. Also, we invite EVERYONE WE KNOW TO COME. Thats right, we have people from all our circles of friends come and meet each other and its always interesting who ends up as friends. This party was no exception, and I talked to fiftygazillion people I don't know and acted like I did know them and did a great job of pretending!

Also, today I sletp till 12 which is the latest I've ever slept and my head hurts and I sound like a chipmunk from all the yelling last night. Gonna go drink my weight in tea. I realize I need to write a long post, and I will really soon. I need a little inspiration so please leave a comment, or drop me a message on Facebook <3

Lovelovelove hanhan <3

random.

 

 

whaddya think?

So I like my eye makeup, my hair and my sweater, because its off the shoulder-ness and the wingedness of my eyeliner makes me feel very fabulous. ...I have nothing to say. GOODBYE

Well, this is how things go.

This is the color of my nails! Sparkles :3

Country music makes me cry. I got a hundred on my english test. I have chocolate. I need sunlight, its cold. I'm in love with Burt's Bees chap stick. I've done like none of my Christmas shopping >.< Why am I complaining?

Note to self: Remember to believe in love, and to think through the steps you take to change things. Be there for friends, and give people second chances. Sometimes, the best way to figure things out is to write out the problem, or to talk about it with someone you trust. Get things in the open. Be yourself, never someone else. Trust people to be there for you. GO do Christmas shopping. And Library. And...smile. It'll all be alright, so keep faith, God'll listen if everyone else is busy. 

love love love hanhan <3

...?

Maybe beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Maybe the beholder changes from time to time. Maybe we can't pick who beholds our most beautiful selves. Maybe we should always just be ourselves, and the beauty will shine through to those who matter. maybe.

Red Umbrella

Sometimes life can get a little dark
I’m sure I’ve got bruises on my heart
Here come the black clouds full of pain
Yeah, you can break away without the chains


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkvpkfwjzEc

So I love this song.
Go listen to it, it feeds my county music addiction. And I also just love the lyrics. I posted a few, and they're just great. The whole message of the song is so much more comforting and realistic than pretty much everything else. Its like, Yes, bad things happen, yes, they are really bad. You're not alone, and honestly., it all gets better, and you're going to be fine. Also, we could really use an umbrella with all this rain.

On other notes, Disney was fantastic. And magical. And cold. So no tans, but lots of fun!
Another note is that I'm so done with people trying to make me upset. Just figure out I don't care as much as you're trying to make me care. I'm not going to cry. You aren't a huge loss, especially since you said all that stuff about me. You can't make me upset, or play games with my head anymore, because you're stupid. So yea, two shout outs!

ANOTHER NOTE. Because this is my blog and I can write whatever I want, I'm in love with country music. And three hour long phone calls. nbd.

...

But I do care. ahskyhfjfkaj whatever.

I'll be in Disney for like a week or so, so don't expect any blogging from me. I'll write you guys some and type 'em up when I come home!


Love from hanhan :3

anyway.

"People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered... Forgive them, anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives... Be kind, anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies...Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you... Be honest and frank, anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight... Build, anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow... Do good, anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough... Give the world the best you have, anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it's all between you and God! It was never between you and them, anyway."
- Bl. Teresa of Calcutta

Saw this and it seemed perfect with some of the stuff thats been happening. 


love from hanhan :]