oh true.

We lose more by avoiding the truth, than what we might lose by speaking it.
Everyone is afraid of something.
Everyone is dealing with something that you might not know about.
Be dependant on yourself, but allow other people in.
Risk and pain aren't bad things. Taking risk and being in pain are temporary.
Don't let your problems shape who you are. Rather, let your strength when dealing shape you into a person worth being.
Believe in someone or something, even if you just believe in yourself.
Remember that there is always something new to learn.
Accept all people for who they are.
Try to see things from all angles.

Speak now. lol taylorswift what?

Okay guys. Why.

Why do we leave things unsaid? Some things are so important and need to be just spat out, and if they mess things up, oh well. you can fix it. I'm not suggesting you tell your mother she looks awful today, or that you tell someone you hate them and mean it. But you know those things that some people talk about with others? The ones that are less than charitable and could be fixed by just bringing it up or telling the person that you don't like the way they're acting. And then there are the things we keep to ourselves that should be let out. the "I love you"s, and "You're beautiful"s and the "I'm so proud of you"s. That's great  if you feel like you don't have to say it, they should just know.  I believe things like that should be said, and meant genuinely. I know I say them a lot, so much so that people don't even believe I mean it anymore. I do mean it, and I'm sorry if you don't think I'm sincere, but I am serious when I say things like that, however joking I might sound.

Okay, so say what you're thinking. Fix things, don't just let them simmer and burn and hurt. Thats all. Peace.

Love from hanhan :]

thankful listy-lister-list

So today we must be thankful.

Thankful Listy-lister-list:  

• My Catholic Faith
• My Mommy
• My Daddy
• My best friends Tori and Becky V and Cathryn <3
• My darling home school friends
• My amazing Saint John's friends
• My siblings, because they amuse me
• This blog
• My puppy
• My evil cats
• My Youthgroup
• New things
• Old things coming back together
• Being homeschooled
• The smell of this amazing food
• Books
• The fact that I'm hula-hooping all night long.
• Life is great.

please remember Im joking PLEASE

HOW TO GET A BOY TO LIKE YOU (in 5 easy, comprehensive steps)

We all want to fall deeply in love with that perfect person. Obviously. The problem with us girls, is that we can never figure out the exact way to make them love us back! Now, I've done extensive research and testing of this method, and its fool-proof! So go ahead, try these out on your soon to be sweetie. He'll be unable to resist you.

1. ALWAYS laugh at everything he says, even if its stupid. This is am important rule and must be followed at all times.
2. When the boy says nothing, so you aren't following rule #1, Smile really big and stare into his eyes. Make sure you ate spinach for lunch too, and don't bother getting it out of your teeth afterwords. Boys like it when they can see you eat healthy.
3. Stalk the boy. Friend him on Facebook, get his number off his page, like all his statuses, and text him at least 15 times a day, especially if he doesn't respond. Hes only not responding because hes shy, but hes totally into you. Boys love when girls give them no space and constantly assault their tools of communication. Seriously. Its a proven fact.
4. Never listen to him. If a boy says he really wants you to back off, or he just wants to be friends with you, he's lying. Trust me, he dreams about you every night.
5. DO NOT BE YOURSELF. Boys hate girls who are genuine and sweet and funny in their own way. Personalities are a big no-no. Get that straight ladies, you're not to be appreciated for yourself, only for who you pretend to be.

If you follow these steps, you'll have a very successful love life.

DISCLAIMER: This writer will not be held responsible for any serious injuries or fines that result from following her tips.

Epic.

How To Make Every Day More Epic

1. The most important part of this process is to remember that nothing is actually what it looks like to “normal people”. You must always see things for how they truly are. Examples:

• Your science teacher is actually an evil genius trying to take over the world.
• Music is actually instructions on how to make gold and apply the perfect amount of makeup in just the right way. You just have to search for the patterns.
• Little children. Forget them being cute. They're power hungry dwarves.
• Pants predict the future. True facts.

2. Everything must involve a villain to vanquish. Even hanging out with friends. Villains could be, but are not limited to:

• Turtles (they look slow and steady, but they have lairs of evil in their shells)
• Science teachers(obviously)
• Math worksheets(They're like those guys that wont let you pass unless you conquer them)
• Rabbits
• Small children
• Cheese

3. Create imaginary friends, or sidekicks to accompany you on your adventures. They can be:

• Short, silly hobbits, who make good food, usually potatoes.
• Tacos
• A Chinchilla
• Forest creatures
• A short friend
• A Unicorn

4. While you're adventuring, its socially acceptable to talk to yourself and make long speeches about your great personal struggles. Feel free to be as poetic as possible, and whine and be heroic in equal measures. Channel your inner Harry Potter. Use appropriate faces.
5. Always make up names for things. Its so much better because when you're a spy, no one will be able to decipher your expert code.
6. If someone calls you strange, or weird, or asks what you're doing, growl at them. Throw your handy taco at them and run like the wind. Or become the wind. Whatever is convenient.

If you follow these rules, I promise life will be much more awesome.Also, see if you can find and decipher my hidden message. If you can, contact me. If not, cry to your unicorn friend. BYE!

lovehopepeace

Let yourself trust.
Only be yourself, not someone else at all times.
Very often, things need to just be said, not held back.
Every once in awhile, love.

Have dreams.
Open yourself to possibilities
Perhaps things are bad now.
Everything gets better, so keep hope.

Place good friends around you.
Entertain yourself.
Action is good, so run, walk, swim, laugh, smile.
Consider other's perspectives
Expect changes, and be at peace about them. 

playing around is fun. More tonight maybe.

I just want to share a quote with you guys: 

 

 

"i have something honest for you. you can believe it or not. but i think its really important.

okay:

you only live once, and you don't have a lot of time here. you never know when its the end. you could die any day, any minute, any second. do what you want, try whatever, it cant hurt. you might not gt the chance later.if you hold back, and look back later with regret that you didn't do something, that just leads to pain. it makes sense to live in the moment and do what makes you happy now. do it, because you may never get the chance if you let it wait.  "


~Tori F <3

head vs. heart.

There's a difference you see. A difference between what the heart wants, and the head knows is right. There's a difference you see.
There's a difference you see. A difference between whether you follow your head or your heart. There's a difference you see.
The difference may be slight, it might not be there at all. I never noticed it before today, because I only payed attention to my heart. It seems, as one grows up, and attachments are there, one has to remember the head has a way too. And the head's way is the way things ought to be. So whats one to do? The heart feels right but the head knows right, and one or the other is the only way to figure this out. So pick. 

Good time tonight with the homeschoolers <3  I love singing princess songs and dancing and wearing wigs and teaching CCD and being like 12 with my best friends and rapping(really hannah?) and screaming and duets and guitar and friends and cookies and ice cream and pizza and smiles and laughter and good times with everyone. 

oh true?

"It ain't what you don't know that gets you into trouble. It's what you know for sure that just aint so." Mark Twain

This isn't supposed to mean anything. I got a 95 on my Psych test and didn't study. This was my feedback...oh cool? 

friends, people, places in life.

Guys, life is a journey and you're always learning new things, you learn them everyday whether you know it or not. You might not realize you learned it, but you did. I've been pondering people lately, and their presence in my life. Because, it is essentially YOUR life. YOU make the decisions about WHO is in it, and WHY they're there, WHAT purpose they serve in it. I've come to the conclusion that its really up to you to surround yourself with people who make you into who you want to be. If you surround yourself with people who are negative, you're going to be negative yourself. This doesn't mean surround yourself with people who are shallow and fake and happy all the time, because thats not good. But have friends who can see the upside of things, and help you out. Always return that favor by being there for them.

Its not easy crafting the greatest circles of friends. It doesn't come easily. You have to get a balance of people you admire, trust, love, are amused by, and who make good food. You can't have all best friends, and you shouldn't have all acquaintances. I have a couple circles of friends, and I've been really lucky to have the best people come into my life at the right times. Have people who make you happy, and when they make you nothing but sad or upset, their place in YOUR life should be taken away. They can come back, I mean, I've had two people come back into my life lately, and I'm seriously happy they did. But anyway.

This is rambling so I'll sum up. Have people in your life that make you happy. That make you laugh and smile, that you love. Because they're going to help you get through life, and enjoy it.

These are some of my friends at my birthday :3 They make me happy <3

another facts. blahhhhh I need to write for reals

Random factoids post number two! I'm too lazy to think deeply. enjoy random factoids and except better from me soon.

1. I'm very busy relating to every song on Taylor Swift's new album.
2. I love my friends more than anything.
3. One of my best friends and I like to crush in the same guys. True facts.
4. I bite my nails all the time and I hate it.
5. I wear pearl earrings and a silver fairy dust necklace every day.
6. I love fairytales and have been obsessed with them since I was 6.
7. I used to want to write songs, but now I just write whatever I want
8. I lovelovelove to sing.
9. I'm Catholic <3
10. I'm really happy lately because my oldish friends are talking to me again and I love them so much <3
11. I believe in love, but there are different types of it. I know what I'm looking for though.
12. I mess up a lot.
13. I'm awful at reading music. like terrible.
14. Most of the people I text regularly are male. One's at college and he's one of my bestfriends, the other one is another close male friend, and the other is the woman I babysit for.
15. I'm homeschooled. Yes I have friends that I see regularly, no I don't do school in my pajamas or in the bathtub. Got it? good.
16. Nobody read this. 16 is a great number.

jsdhgiathvs :]

1. This week was probably one of the best ever.
2. I love Taylor Swift's new album like a lot.
3. I love how everyone is friends again, it makes me happier than I can express
4. Next week is looking fabulous as well
5. I'm being careful. I need to be more careful. But I'm doing my best.
6. Planning to make the most of this year is cool
7. This is an awful blog post. I don't care. At all.
8.Drop everything now/ Meet me in the pouring rain/Kiss me on the sidewalk/ Take away the pain...
9. AMAZING SONG.
10.City this weekend :]
11. Why is it so different when people look you in the eye and say things?
12. I'm a fan of it, don't get me wrong.
13. No one is reading this by now.
14. Dorothy the Awkness monster.
15. I love fall <3
16. <---Thats how old I am now!

16

So today I turned 16. I made three wishes, one at 11:11 Am, one with the candles, one at 11:11 PM. I saw some of the most amazing friends ever. I had cake and hugs and laughs and love. It was a great birthday! And it made me think too :3

A few weeks ago, one of my friends asked who I was thinking about having over this year, if it'd be the same people as last year. After I stared at her for about a minute, she apologized and I told her who was coming. So thats what actually made me think. WHAT DID IT MAKE YOU THINK ABOUT HANNAH? you might ask. WHY DO YOU KEEP SAYING YOUR THINKING SPIT IT OUT. you might say. But you probably wouldn't yell it. Anyway. THIS IS WHAT I WAS PONDERING.

A year older, and everything is so completely different this year. I have some of the same friends, and some different ones. I've learned a lot and changed a lot since my last birthday. I don't feel completely different today, like turning sixteen makes you a completely different person in itself, but I think the year leading up to it did change me, and help me grow up a little, or at least in some ways.

Also, at sixteen, a lot of people do candles, but I won't. I will thank you guys.Thanks for being there for me, helping me grow, making me laugh, singing with me, dancing with me, smiling with me, crying with me, thank you! I've made it through sixteen years due to my amazing family, and amazing friends <3

...

Almost.
One of the saddest words in the entire English language.

Maybe.
A word so full of hope and promise and possibilities and dreams.

And thats all I have to say. Looking forward to the rest of this week!

Love from hanhan :3

gamesgamesgames

This is all a pretty game.
This is all a beautiful illusion.
All the pretty lies we tell,
All the "secrets" that we spell,
Faking laughs, faking smiles.
A line of my fake friends goes on for a mile.

Everyone is all the same.
This is just a pretty game.A game that I can't play.
So only the truth, that's all I'll say.

Every so often...

...I like to have discussions with my friends. Today I had one with a friend of mine about personal mottos when it comes to friendships and relationships, and how we were in them. He is a self-proclaimed clinger. He holds on, and tries to make things work out with everyone, no matter how sad it might make him at the time, it makes him happy in the end.

So then he asked what I would consider myself. I'm a runner. A runner away-er. My personal mottos include: "You can get over anyone if you try hard enough!" and "If someone is making you unhappy, and there isn't a workable solution, run away, leave, get out of there. NOW." I'm USED to leaving. As bad as it may sound, I've adjusted early to leaving, due to my military family and how much we moved. Being left wasn't really a big deal, I don't hold that tight to people who leave me.

When I moved to NY, I thought I'd try that holding on thing. It's harder, to be attached to someone, and trust them not to turn on you, or to leave. So I'm still the one running away, leaving, because its safer. No one can leave you, taking your trust with them.

TURNS OUT. I'm a coward...but I'm not changing. The people who hold onto me when i want to leave are the ones that last. And I love them for it. So to everyone who decided to give it another try with me lately, thanks. And to those few people who've held on this long, you're amazing.

love from hanhan :3

not important at all.

I've now renamed, reformatted, and redecorated this entire blog. November is my favorite month, out of all 12 months. It always has and always will be! This has no point. My birthday is in exactly a week! Then I'll be sixteen, which apparently is a monumental age. I don't want to do any school today. I just wanna listen to Wicked <3 I love whoever pops onto my blog and likes all my posts. They're the best. Ever. <3 Okay...going to do french.  TOODLES!

(4 hours later)
Today I have accomplished...well...

Listening the the entire Wicked soundtrack 30-ish times
Redoing my entire blog
Taking a walk to clear my head
A FRENCH SECTION
...

That's all. Stop expecting more from me! Okay...I'm going to do something useful now...bye.Love from hanhan :3
BTW. You'll always be with me, like a hand print on my heart. Just so you know.

Wicked :3

GUYS. THIS DAY WAS FREAKING AMAZING. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

I woke up ready for chorus, a little tired because sleeping is like a no no. I got dressed for my super long day, and my dad says "HANNAH. We're going to do some stuff together today"  with his really angry math face. So I say, "no we aren't.". And he goes..."Fine, I just won't use these tickets to Wicked." So then I scream really loud and give him and my mom a hug and get ready to go to the train.

He didn't talk about school the WHOLE TIME there, which was great. We got to the city, and everyone is so interesting, I was staring at them like a freak. He takes me to this awesome restaurant called the Stardust Cafe, where the waiter's and waitress's sing all the time, which was so awesome. So after we hear a few awesome songs, and get lunch, we head out.

I got to see the Forever 21 store, the Hershey store, and wandered for a bit. Then off the the show! The show was amazing. The Actor's had AMAZING voices, I'm super jealous. The songs were gorgeous, the lyrics great, the dancing fabulous, the storyline, fabulous, everything was so great. I even liked the ending,. the set, and the costumes! Daddy nodded off a tad, but I think I forgot to blink...yea.

After the show we went back to Penn Station, and then got home, and now I'm writing this to you. YAY!

No friends ever.

**The scene is hanhan's closet...the clothes are talking....**

"Oh look! She did it again! See that poor skirt on the ground? Waiting for repairs, poor soul. She'll never fix it. It'll just go to the BASKET OF DOOM *Thunderclaps*"
"She wouldn't send another article there! That's the end of the world!"
"Sweetie, when you've been here as long as I have, waiting for her to wear me, you see a lot of things. I was even once put in the BASKET OF DOOM *thunderclaps* For having wrinkles that she was too lazy to iron. I barely escaped with my life."
"Bandage skirt! Stop terrifying the poor new blouses. They never touched you!"
"How could they, they're on the other side of the closet! And you're one to talk, favorite black top! She wears you all the time! You're barely ever in here!"
"Yea! leave us alone Bandage skirt! She's WORN us!"
"Be quite you stupid shirts. I can hear her opening the door. More poor souls! Oh! SHE'S TAKING ME OUT! I'M GETTING WORN TODAY SUCKERS!"
*Hanhan, to herself, muttering*
"Now HOW did you get so wrinkly. You have like 6 layers! it'll take me half an hour to iron you! You better look amazing next week, that's all I can say. "
*Bandage skirt :* "I'm getting wornn I'm getting worrn. HAHA you poor babies in a pile on the ground! I'm getting worn! BOOYAH!"

And this is why Hannah has no friends. She makes up stories about her clothes talking while she cleans. Good job Hannah.

Here we go!

Tonight: There will be a beautiful post here. where this stuff is. In like two hours.


Seven hours later....

You know that feeling where it hurts to be, and no matter what you do it continues to hurt? You know that feeling you get when you stand there and your heart breaks, and you knew it would break, so its all your fault? You know that feeling where you're pushed to your limit, you can't do this anymore, and yet you find you can? Do you know what it feels like to love, to love the entire human race, simply because one of them has shown you that you are not alone? Do you know that feeling of adrenaline when you feel like you've escaped death by an inch?  You know that feeling of pure innocence, peace, happiness, when you look at a newborn baby, a single red rose, new fallen snow, an elderly couple still in love? You know the feeling you get when you hate to let someone down, but know it needs to be done? Do you know what it feels like to feel, really feel, to feel love, joy, loss, hope, peace, and pain? Because this is what living is. It's taking chances, experiencing life. So ask yourself if you're living or not.