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OKAY SO HI

Christmas is over. it was beautiful. AND NOW ITS DONE.
I'm so stressed and behind and dying and blah and dramatic and not nice.
Sorry I left.
I'll be back with a real article soon.
Next year. I promise.
<3
bye

A winner at a losing game

You know what scares me? Don't laugh at me when I tell you.

I'm afraid to die, and have no one remember me. I don't want to not make a difference. I want to be stuck in people's memories as that girl who helped them become who they are. As that girl, Hannah, who really made a difference to a lot of people. Thats what I want. This blog isn't going to change the world, it probably won't change anyone but me. I'm alright with that.

I volunteer at my church a lot, and sometimes when I go out around my town, or surrounding towns, people recognize me and come up and talk to me. I think thats the coolest thing ever, and it makes me so happy to be a mini celebrity(Thats not why I volunteer, but its pretty cool).

These are two unrelated topics. I can't write very fluidly lately :p

~hanhan <3

If I die young...

So I don't know about you, but its my firm belief that everything that happens, bad or good, happens for a reason. Everything. Even if you can't see the reason when its happening, after it happens, there is indeed a reason. I've been through quite a lot for someone my age, and I've started to find reasons for even the worst things. I'm not trying to sound like a martyr, because I know that stuff I deal with is nothing to some people, but to me, some of it was awful, and some of it was great, and all of it has a reason.

Its about to get personal.

I've gotten hurt by/hurt a couple people. Although a lot of people don't really agree with my way of being, I don't really care. I'm sorry. I've learned how to be careful, how to protect myself, and how I should never compromise my morals for other peoples standards. Every time I got hurt, I pieced myself back together and learned new things about myself and the life I wanted. Its all leading me towards something, and I'm a lot happier with myself and the people in my life than I was before. So everything happened for a reason.

I have a list of examples written down, but I can't actually find them at the moment, so I apologize. If I find it, I'll type and post it for you guys.

On another note, I found some of my old notebooks. When I die, I'd really like all of the stuff I wrote, on this blog, and in the notebooks ( which I'll always write in) put into a book. All of it. Even when I'm not pleasant. No one has to get the book, its just for family or friends or what not. Anyway.

Also, this is my favorite song at the moment.

Lovelovelove hanhan

Christmas party!

So every year we have a Christmas party. A HUGE CHRISTMAS PARTY.

We used to have it on Christmas eve, to make up for our lack of family in the area, and now we have it on the weekend before. We get a bouncy house, lots of wine/beer(adults only) tons of food, and a Christmas book for everyone to write in. Also, we invite EVERYONE WE KNOW TO COME. Thats right, we have people from all our circles of friends come and meet each other and its always interesting who ends up as friends. This party was no exception, and I talked to fiftygazillion people I don't know and acted like I did know them and did a great job of pretending!

Also, today I sletp till 12 which is the latest I've ever slept and my head hurts and I sound like a chipmunk from all the yelling last night. Gonna go drink my weight in tea. I realize I need to write a long post, and I will really soon. I need a little inspiration so please leave a comment, or drop me a message on Facebook <3

Lovelovelove hanhan <3

random.

 

 

whaddya think?

So I like my eye makeup, my hair and my sweater, because its off the shoulder-ness and the wingedness of my eyeliner makes me feel very fabulous. ...I have nothing to say. GOODBYE

Well, this is how things go.

This is the color of my nails! Sparkles :3

Country music makes me cry. I got a hundred on my english test. I have chocolate. I need sunlight, its cold. I'm in love with Burt's Bees chap stick. I've done like none of my Christmas shopping >.< Why am I complaining?

Note to self: Remember to believe in love, and to think through the steps you take to change things. Be there for friends, and give people second chances. Sometimes, the best way to figure things out is to write out the problem, or to talk about it with someone you trust. Get things in the open. Be yourself, never someone else. Trust people to be there for you. GO do Christmas shopping. And Library. And...smile. It'll all be alright, so keep faith, God'll listen if everyone else is busy. 

love love love hanhan <3

...?

Maybe beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Maybe the beholder changes from time to time. Maybe we can't pick who beholds our most beautiful selves. Maybe we should always just be ourselves, and the beauty will shine through to those who matter. maybe.

Red Umbrella

Sometimes life can get a little dark
I’m sure I’ve got bruises on my heart
Here come the black clouds full of pain
Yeah, you can break away without the chains


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkvpkfwjzEc

So I love this song.
Go listen to it, it feeds my county music addiction. And I also just love the lyrics. I posted a few, and they're just great. The whole message of the song is so much more comforting and realistic than pretty much everything else. Its like, Yes, bad things happen, yes, they are really bad. You're not alone, and honestly., it all gets better, and you're going to be fine. Also, we could really use an umbrella with all this rain.

On other notes, Disney was fantastic. And magical. And cold. So no tans, but lots of fun!
Another note is that I'm so done with people trying to make me upset. Just figure out I don't care as much as you're trying to make me care. I'm not going to cry. You aren't a huge loss, especially since you said all that stuff about me. You can't make me upset, or play games with my head anymore, because you're stupid. So yea, two shout outs!

ANOTHER NOTE. Because this is my blog and I can write whatever I want, I'm in love with country music. And three hour long phone calls. nbd.

...

But I do care. ahskyhfjfkaj whatever.

I'll be in Disney for like a week or so, so don't expect any blogging from me. I'll write you guys some and type 'em up when I come home!


Love from hanhan :3

anyway.

"People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centered... Forgive them, anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish ulterior motives... Be kind, anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies...Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you... Be honest and frank, anyway.
What you spend years building, someone may destroy overnight... Build, anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow... Do good, anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough... Give the world the best you have, anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it's all between you and God! It was never between you and them, anyway."
- Bl. Teresa of Calcutta

Saw this and it seemed perfect with some of the stuff thats been happening. 


love from hanhan :]

oh true.

We lose more by avoiding the truth, than what we might lose by speaking it.
Everyone is afraid of something.
Everyone is dealing with something that you might not know about.
Be dependant on yourself, but allow other people in.
Risk and pain aren't bad things. Taking risk and being in pain are temporary.
Don't let your problems shape who you are. Rather, let your strength when dealing shape you into a person worth being.
Believe in someone or something, even if you just believe in yourself.
Remember that there is always something new to learn.
Accept all people for who they are.
Try to see things from all angles.

Speak now. lol taylorswift what?

Okay guys. Why.

Why do we leave things unsaid? Some things are so important and need to be just spat out, and if they mess things up, oh well. you can fix it. I'm not suggesting you tell your mother she looks awful today, or that you tell someone you hate them and mean it. But you know those things that some people talk about with others? The ones that are less than charitable and could be fixed by just bringing it up or telling the person that you don't like the way they're acting. And then there are the things we keep to ourselves that should be let out. the "I love you"s, and "You're beautiful"s and the "I'm so proud of you"s. That's great  if you feel like you don't have to say it, they should just know.  I believe things like that should be said, and meant genuinely. I know I say them a lot, so much so that people don't even believe I mean it anymore. I do mean it, and I'm sorry if you don't think I'm sincere, but I am serious when I say things like that, however joking I might sound.

Okay, so say what you're thinking. Fix things, don't just let them simmer and burn and hurt. Thats all. Peace.

Love from hanhan :]

thankful listy-lister-list

So today we must be thankful.

Thankful Listy-lister-list:  

• My Catholic Faith
• My Mommy
• My Daddy
• My best friends Tori and Becky V and Cathryn <3
• My darling home school friends
• My amazing Saint John's friends
• My siblings, because they amuse me
• This blog
• My puppy
• My evil cats
• My Youthgroup
• New things
• Old things coming back together
• Being homeschooled
• The smell of this amazing food
• Books
• The fact that I'm hula-hooping all night long.
• Life is great.

please remember Im joking PLEASE

HOW TO GET A BOY TO LIKE YOU (in 5 easy, comprehensive steps)

We all want to fall deeply in love with that perfect person. Obviously. The problem with us girls, is that we can never figure out the exact way to make them love us back! Now, I've done extensive research and testing of this method, and its fool-proof! So go ahead, try these out on your soon to be sweetie. He'll be unable to resist you.

1. ALWAYS laugh at everything he says, even if its stupid. This is am important rule and must be followed at all times.
2. When the boy says nothing, so you aren't following rule #1, Smile really big and stare into his eyes. Make sure you ate spinach for lunch too, and don't bother getting it out of your teeth afterwords. Boys like it when they can see you eat healthy.
3. Stalk the boy. Friend him on Facebook, get his number off his page, like all his statuses, and text him at least 15 times a day, especially if he doesn't respond. Hes only not responding because hes shy, but hes totally into you. Boys love when girls give them no space and constantly assault their tools of communication. Seriously. Its a proven fact.
4. Never listen to him. If a boy says he really wants you to back off, or he just wants to be friends with you, he's lying. Trust me, he dreams about you every night.
5. DO NOT BE YOURSELF. Boys hate girls who are genuine and sweet and funny in their own way. Personalities are a big no-no. Get that straight ladies, you're not to be appreciated for yourself, only for who you pretend to be.

If you follow these steps, you'll have a very successful love life.

DISCLAIMER: This writer will not be held responsible for any serious injuries or fines that result from following her tips.

Epic.

How To Make Every Day More Epic

1. The most important part of this process is to remember that nothing is actually what it looks like to “normal people”. You must always see things for how they truly are. Examples:

• Your science teacher is actually an evil genius trying to take over the world.
• Music is actually instructions on how to make gold and apply the perfect amount of makeup in just the right way. You just have to search for the patterns.
• Little children. Forget them being cute. They're power hungry dwarves.
• Pants predict the future. True facts.

2. Everything must involve a villain to vanquish. Even hanging out with friends. Villains could be, but are not limited to:

• Turtles (they look slow and steady, but they have lairs of evil in their shells)
• Science teachers(obviously)
• Math worksheets(They're like those guys that wont let you pass unless you conquer them)
• Rabbits
• Small children
• Cheese

3. Create imaginary friends, or sidekicks to accompany you on your adventures. They can be:

• Short, silly hobbits, who make good food, usually potatoes.
• Tacos
• A Chinchilla
• Forest creatures
• A short friend
• A Unicorn

4. While you're adventuring, its socially acceptable to talk to yourself and make long speeches about your great personal struggles. Feel free to be as poetic as possible, and whine and be heroic in equal measures. Channel your inner Harry Potter. Use appropriate faces.
5. Always make up names for things. Its so much better because when you're a spy, no one will be able to decipher your expert code.
6. If someone calls you strange, or weird, or asks what you're doing, growl at them. Throw your handy taco at them and run like the wind. Or become the wind. Whatever is convenient.

If you follow these rules, I promise life will be much more awesome.Also, see if you can find and decipher my hidden message. If you can, contact me. If not, cry to your unicorn friend. BYE!

lovehopepeace

Let yourself trust.
Only be yourself, not someone else at all times.
Very often, things need to just be said, not held back.
Every once in awhile, love.

Have dreams.
Open yourself to possibilities
Perhaps things are bad now.
Everything gets better, so keep hope.

Place good friends around you.
Entertain yourself.
Action is good, so run, walk, swim, laugh, smile.
Consider other's perspectives
Expect changes, and be at peace about them. 

playing around is fun. More tonight maybe.

I just want to share a quote with you guys: 

 

 

"i have something honest for you. you can believe it or not. but i think its really important.

okay:

you only live once, and you don't have a lot of time here. you never know when its the end. you could die any day, any minute, any second. do what you want, try whatever, it cant hurt. you might not gt the chance later.if you hold back, and look back later with regret that you didn't do something, that just leads to pain. it makes sense to live in the moment and do what makes you happy now. do it, because you may never get the chance if you let it wait.  "


~Tori F <3

head vs. heart.

There's a difference you see. A difference between what the heart wants, and the head knows is right. There's a difference you see.
There's a difference you see. A difference between whether you follow your head or your heart. There's a difference you see.
The difference may be slight, it might not be there at all. I never noticed it before today, because I only payed attention to my heart. It seems, as one grows up, and attachments are there, one has to remember the head has a way too. And the head's way is the way things ought to be. So whats one to do? The heart feels right but the head knows right, and one or the other is the only way to figure this out. So pick. 

Good time tonight with the homeschoolers <3  I love singing princess songs and dancing and wearing wigs and teaching CCD and being like 12 with my best friends and rapping(really hannah?) and screaming and duets and guitar and friends and cookies and ice cream and pizza and smiles and laughter and good times with everyone. 

oh true?

"It ain't what you don't know that gets you into trouble. It's what you know for sure that just aint so." Mark Twain

This isn't supposed to mean anything. I got a 95 on my Psych test and didn't study. This was my feedback...oh cool? 

friends, people, places in life.

Guys, life is a journey and you're always learning new things, you learn them everyday whether you know it or not. You might not realize you learned it, but you did. I've been pondering people lately, and their presence in my life. Because, it is essentially YOUR life. YOU make the decisions about WHO is in it, and WHY they're there, WHAT purpose they serve in it. I've come to the conclusion that its really up to you to surround yourself with people who make you into who you want to be. If you surround yourself with people who are negative, you're going to be negative yourself. This doesn't mean surround yourself with people who are shallow and fake and happy all the time, because thats not good. But have friends who can see the upside of things, and help you out. Always return that favor by being there for them.

Its not easy crafting the greatest circles of friends. It doesn't come easily. You have to get a balance of people you admire, trust, love, are amused by, and who make good food. You can't have all best friends, and you shouldn't have all acquaintances. I have a couple circles of friends, and I've been really lucky to have the best people come into my life at the right times. Have people who make you happy, and when they make you nothing but sad or upset, their place in YOUR life should be taken away. They can come back, I mean, I've had two people come back into my life lately, and I'm seriously happy they did. But anyway.

This is rambling so I'll sum up. Have people in your life that make you happy. That make you laugh and smile, that you love. Because they're going to help you get through life, and enjoy it.

These are some of my friends at my birthday :3 They make me happy <3