In life, we all have those things that pull us back towards them, no matter how bad for us they are. People, things, places, they become an addiction, and need, a want so strong you feel like you can't deny it. These things, being bad, being WRONG, being everything we try to avoid give us two options: The first one is to let the need take over, let it/them consume you, and follow things things/people/places down down down and lose yourself in them/it. This is usually the path people take. Its easier, they say, than trying to break the addiction. And no matter how much they get hurt, or hurt others, they let it/them be their one and only focus.
The other option, the one less commonly used, is this: You break the addiction yourself. When that person pulls away, instead of crying your life away, you get over it. Instead of ruining your chances at life, love, and future happiness by doing things that aren't necessarily good for you, just STOP. Why would you hold onto something that doesn't want you/isn't any good?
It isn't easy, either choice. the second choice, as simple as it may seem, is difficult, and sometimes you fall off the wagon. Even I've messed up on that, going back to people who do nothing but hurt you. In time, with practice, you learn to be happy without them, without your crutch. You see other people you could be seeing, other things you could be doing. You even see yourself differently. You're strong now, because you don't depend on that crutch, that addiction to be happy.
Congratulations, you've taken a step towards maturity.
That's such a great post, Hannah, and I agree with it so much. It applies to so many things in life. :)
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